A while back, I wrote this in my journal:
"Do you ever feel like you are living in a dream? My life has kind of felt like a dream lately. I feel like I should still be at home with my mom cooking food for me and everyone being here.
I have really been praying hard for a way to make money while going to school. My job is really frustrating me because I am just not getting enough hours and I am almost out of money. Last night, I went with Shauna to her girlfriend party and towards the end, the conversation turned to Asea and we spent the next two hours telling them all about it. She ended up getting two girls really interested and practically GAVE it away to them. When we pulled into the driveway at the end of the night, I mentioned something that is in my Patriarchal blessing. Shauna gasped and said, "Sara! That exact same thing, ALMOST WORD-FOR-WORD, is in mine too!!" We talked a lot about it and I ultimately got the strong impression that Asea is exactly what I need to be doing right now. When I said our family prayers, for the first time ever, I sobbed as I thanked Heavenly Father for Asea in our lives. This is an amazing product that could seriously change the world for the better."
That feeling hasn't really gone away. I have been STUCK and I felt like I just had nowhere to go and no way to get out of the hole that I've been in.
A couple of weeks ago, as a YSA stake, we had the opportunity to have ELDER BEDNAR of the Quorum of the twelve apostles come talk to us IN PERSON!!! I thought I would be okay going two hours early on Super Bowl Sunday to get a good seat... but when I got there, it was already full and I had to sit in the overflow and save seats. Soon, Brother Wells (the second counselor in my YSA Ward bishopric) came over and talked to me about how he had already been there for two hours saving seats. A few minutes later, he came back and said, "Wait until I get back to my seat, count to three, and then come sit in the row behind me next to Jared. He asked for you specifically by name." haha I'm not sure what he meant by that, but this meant that I was going to be sitting literally FEET away from Elder Bednar! I sat down and spent the next two hours talking like crazy to Jared. We had fun talking about pretty much anything and everything. When Elder Bednar came in, the whole room went silent and stood on their feet. Most were surprised at how short he ended up being haha but he seemed more real than ever. He opened it up for questions and that is how the next two hours went. It was POWERFUL and absolutely inspiring!
That night I wrote the following on Facebook and my friends from the ward commented:
Listening to Elder Bednar tonight was absolutely AMAZING!!!! Thank you SO much Jared for letting me and Kirstie sit by you so close! I feel so blessed to have been able to be so close to an Apostle of God :) I LOVE the blessing he bestowed upon us. WHAT A NIGHT.
Sara Garner Ooooohhhhh yes! That was great too! :) and when he bore "Apostolic witness" of Christ. I had a seminary teacher in high school who happens to be my home ward bishop who said that Apostles have literally SEEN Christ, so when they bear Apostolic Witness... They are saying they really do KNOW he lives :) *sigh* the whole night was just amazing
Since that day, things have really been going well. I have realized how blessed I really am and I have been humbled to the point that I know that the Lord is so in charge. I am now living my life day to day and trusting that He will direct me in the ways that he has planned for me. I am in it for the journey now! Bring it on! :)
